11:46 p.m. - 2007-09-04
if i am to be fooled twice, just ignore me

I realise something so basic yet often I forgot about it. Be with someone that makes you happy or you are happy with. Someone that will put a smile on my face. At the very least, not someone that upset you perpetually half of the time. He came back after they broke up. Am I a spare tyre? Am I that low graded? Had they not broke up, had she not ill treat him will he think of me? Of course not.

If the very first moment I interact with him (may it be words/voice or whatsoever) already set the tears rolling down my cheek. How much more can I expect if I had to spend a day? A week? A month? a year? My life with him? Someone that trigger my tear as soon as anything from him appear before my eyes? How much happiness can I get from someone that make me upset consistently? Someone who abandon me, that I loved but was in a rush to throw me away. Do you Dennis tay boon ming understand how it feel! Damn it¡­

What was done is done. If you can give your reason as ¡°your feelings long slipped away¡± how is it possible that your feelings came back now? Please I do not wan to be fooled by the same person twice. I will be a real dumb foolish asshole can?

It's not what is happening to you now,
or what has happened in your past,
that determines who you become.
Rather, it's your decisions about
what you focus on, what things mean to you,
and what you are going to do about them,
that will determine your ultimate destiny.

-Anthony Robbins